6 weeks of the gideonite training program has taught me so much about God, myself, people, love, prayer, consecration, broken-ness, patience, and soooo many other things. It is so crazy how every week just flies by, and sometimes just leaving no space for you to breathe before starting a new week ahead.
TEAM LIBERIA is officially halfway through the program and wow what an amazing journey it has been so far. It is definitely not easy and it really can get quite physically draining at times because of the packed schedule. I am also learning that it is okay to feel sad.. and that I am really, only human. Sometimes it gets so tiring being away from my own home region and feeling so left out and far away I just want to bawl and cry into someone's arms. I get all sad inside my heart for that night and it feels horrible going to sleep but then God always encourages in such a warm and loving manner :)
Also what has been on my mind recently is plans for post-gideonite.. sigh staring at university applications is just killing me. Apply / don't apply? Apply / don't apply? Apply / don't apply? WHERE TO APPLY?! So many procedures, so many documents, but most importantly.. what is God saying about this?
Can't believe it's only going to be a matter of weeks before we're leaving!! So fast.. so fast.
Monday, February 20, 2012
Monday, January 09, 2012
20 hours
Just over 20 hours to the craziest journey of my life, and I am feeling a whirlpool of emotions in my heart. A million thoughts running through my mind, and all the what-ifs are flooding in. But in the midst of aaalll these feelings, emotions and thoughts.. I know I am right where God wants me to be, and whether it may be a smooth or rocky path ahead, He will ALWAYS be by my side :) Can't help but feel so thankful as I look back on 2011 and how God has brought me through all the way till now!
Fasten your seat belts, here we go.
Fasten your seat belts, here we go.
Sunday, January 08, 2012
Jesus loves me (old version)
Jesus loves me, this I know,
Though my hair is white as snow.
Though my sight is growing dim,
Still He bids me trust in him.
(Chorus)
Yes, Jesus loves me
Yes, Jesus loves me
Yes, Jesus loves me
The Bible tells me so.
Though my steps are oh, so slow,
With my hand in his I'll go.
On through life, let come what may,
He'll be there to lead the way.
Though I am no longer young,
I have much which He's begun.
Let me serve Christ with a smile,
Go with other's the extra mile.
(Chorus)
When the nights are dark and long,
In my heart He puts a song.
Telling me in words so clear,
"Have no fear, for I am near."
(Chorus)
When my work on earth is done,
And life's victories have been won.
He will take me home above,
Then I'll understand his love.
(Chorus)
I love Jesus, does he know?
Have I ever told Him so?
Jesus loves to hear me say,
That I love him every day.
Though my hair is white as snow.
Though my sight is growing dim,
Still He bids me trust in him.
(Chorus)
Yes, Jesus loves me
Yes, Jesus loves me
Yes, Jesus loves me
The Bible tells me so.
Though my steps are oh, so slow,
With my hand in his I'll go.
On through life, let come what may,
He'll be there to lead the way.
(Chorus)
Though I am no longer young,
I have much which He's begun.
Let me serve Christ with a smile,
Go with other's the extra mile.
(Chorus)
When the nights are dark and long,
In my heart He puts a song.
Telling me in words so clear,
"Have no fear, for I am near."
(Chorus)
When my work on earth is done,
And life's victories have been won.
He will take me home above,
Then I'll understand his love.
(Chorus)
I love Jesus, does he know?
Have I ever told Him so?
Jesus loves to hear me say,
That I love him every day.
Saturday, January 07, 2012
Wednesday, January 04, 2012
The last 2-3 weeks has been super mega crazy.
I survived:
x planning, executing, and clearing up thanksgiving with the committee
x reaching home at 3am+ almost every other day and sleeping at 4am every morning
It's about 5 days till I officially start my journey as a missionary, and it kinda feels weird yet exciting but strange. It's a whole lot of mixed feelings - scared, happy, sad, excited, disbelief... It is definitely very hard to describe. I often get asked this question - "Are you ready?" The answer is, I DON'T KNOW. I am, but I'm not. I don't think one can ever be ready enough for this.
I feel like a sponge. Every time I'm out with friends, I try to absorb everything around me. Their company, the jokes, the atmosphere, the way each and every person has his/her own weird quirks, and how we keep talking about how things will be like when training starts. I feel happy, and then I feel sad. It's hard to admit but mostly, I just feel fearful of stepping into a new environment and not being able to see people I'm familiar with on a weekly basis anymore. BUT that aside I'm so thankful for God's timing in everything!!
God is so good, I love Him and it's an honor to serve Him like this!
I survived:
x planning, executing, and clearing up thanksgiving with the committee
x reaching home at 3am+ almost every other day and sleeping at 4am every morning
It's about 5 days till I officially start my journey as a missionary, and it kinda feels weird yet exciting but strange. It's a whole lot of mixed feelings - scared, happy, sad, excited, disbelief... It is definitely very hard to describe. I often get asked this question - "Are you ready?" The answer is, I DON'T KNOW. I am, but I'm not. I don't think one can ever be ready enough for this.
I feel like a sponge. Every time I'm out with friends, I try to absorb everything around me. Their company, the jokes, the atmosphere, the way each and every person has his/her own weird quirks, and how we keep talking about how things will be like when training starts. I feel happy, and then I feel sad. It's hard to admit but mostly, I just feel fearful of stepping into a new environment and not being able to see people I'm familiar with on a weekly basis anymore. BUT that aside I'm so thankful for God's timing in everything!!
God is so good, I love Him and it's an honor to serve Him like this!
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